How are you doing more of what you said you were going to do?

This is my response to this

Stop Comparing Yourself to Others: An Alternative to Competing with People

I've written more. I actually out effort in writing my own fantasy story. Getting to the nitty-gritty of it. I've pushed myself to let my stuffs get out there and face the world, and I've felt good about it. I've shared with people the stories and emotions I've kept within my heart for so long.

More often than not I've kept myself buoyed on top of my low moods and lethargy. I've kept myself motivated and focused on the tasks at hands. I've become more present.

I've pushed myself to go out there to meet people. I've opened my sight to sharper details of life.

I am improving, every day.

Reprints of classics

Beautiful packaging, but the same content inside. The same content, the same story, that u can get on the internet. For free.

What is the point in this? An effort to waste paper?

Be nice

Be nice, HM. But where is the sincerity in that? Damn nicety if I dont feel like baring my teeth for someone else. Oh, so im immature and unprofessional? Damn it too, if professionalism encourages insincerity just to get things done. People are lower than the tasks you say?

But, is it really that? People want to hear nice things. Nice things numb their inconfidence. It soothes their hurt ego, however their ego might have been hurt. It's like sex, or drugs, or alcohol, to numb the reality a bit.

Because people enjoy illusions. That's why there is faith an religion. That's why fantasy writers sell even though what they tell people is technically lies. Stories are enjoyed and even are acted upon because people are enthralled by the illusions in which they wrapped themselves.

Transition

If you're in a period of transition, you don't need to be anywhere but where you are. It's okay to take some time to savor nothingness. It's okay to not know the answers. It's okay to be unsure about what you want to do next in your career. It's okay if you're procrastinating about something. It's okay to be going through massive amounts of pain.

Every job, relationship, friendship, family member, unfortunate circumstance, health situation, birth, death…

All of it is perfect. All of it is full of extremely important lessons that, if learned, will make you stronger, wiser, more open-hearted, more open-minded, more free, and more yourself than ever before.

Source: Facebook

Anger

When im inspired, i feel angry. I need to be angered to get that fire and passion and dedication out of me, to create miracle. When inspired, Im in a constant state of anger.

I look for conflict. I flinch at utopian happiness.

Im a rebel at heart. Like a soldier always readying for conflict. Her muscles tense with the smell of war.

Green

Im jealous. Its so sudden, but i am.
Why do i have to be nice? What's the point?
What do I want to know? He can go with whatever. I dont care. Why should I care?
I hate you!

Sherlock fandom

Why do i like sherlock fandom so much?
Same chars, i dont hav to get to know them again.
Same very vivid & interesting & complimenting chars. I've not got tired of them all after 6 months, a feat!
Reminds me of my own self image and contradictions. Make me question my limits & values. Strengthen my own self.
Hmmm….the steamy bits r really steamy.
The thrill of finding the really good ones….a bit like hunting.
The sheer amount of good fics out there, the sheer scale of it all.
People who keep me updated daily. With a very good sense of humour.

The latter the better

Darwinism, evolution and the illusion that the later (descendance) has to better than the precedence.

Darwin's law of evolution says that humans who manage to pass down their genes are stronger than those who dont. It's survival of the fittest. So from Darwin onwards we tend to criticise the past, to think that the present is better and the future will be best.

That could be why we always want more, because more is better.

But is it so? Watch the first part of this recent clip from TED. 

Russell Foster: Why do we sleep?

How has we industrial creatures treat sleep? For those who dont know yet, sleep takes up one third of our lives. Whenever I plan my overload schedule, I always have to put in a blank of 8 hours of sleep because that is unavoidable no matter what. But of course i dont quite follow what I've set myself to 'not do' for the sake of that blank.

Seeing that a core part of our life - sleep - is ignored by us - supposedly better humans of later generation, what would Shakespeare's contemporaries say about this? "Those foolhardy humans are certainly not from our blood! Our descendants can't be worse than us"? No, they wouldn't have k own Darwin yet, so it should be like this: "Thou foolish future species! No time like our time! That's why the world will end in 2012! When humans don't sleep anymore and just die of exertion!"


From this little 'fable', what do you think? Why changes are often assumed to be better? We scorn the past for being undeveloped. Those from developed countries must have once been appalled at the conditions of 'backward' developing countries, even when they go there for a holiday in search of 'a past long lost'. Nostalgia might have painted the past in soulful oiled colours onto huge canvass, but the so-called 'truth' remains: we now are better off, somehow.

But are they so?

Traces

From what i see from my mum's life, she was unhappy w the family. So dont expect me to want to hav and believe in domesticity. I know i should not let the past dictate my present, and I have tried to do that by making the effort of spending time w the relatives. But that doesnt mean that the past's legacy is wiped out; traces of it will always be there, clinging onto my psyche like a dull blood stain. I still remember the various states of unhappiness of people in my family, and the pain that they inflicted onto each other, including me. So to me the family will never get to see the intimate, personal side of me. Ever since i was 14, i have made an unconscious vow which i still uphold, that there r things to tell and things not to tell, and the things got told lessen in number as I grow up. Of course I'm still expected to share, such futile hope that led to superficial reporting of unimportant happenings in my life.

The bad

The bad side of me:
I scorn weakness. I scorn weak people. I judge & determine the true value of a person, object or experience. Im subjective & judgemental.